By mid-July 2017 I had to be honest with myself. I had a problem with alcohol. It was hard to link the words "problem with alcohol" with how I presented myself to society. I'm a respectable person - a successful small business owner, designer, mother, wife, somewhat of a high-achiever, always on the go, creative, stylish, well presented. How did this happen to me? What caused me to start hiding the amount I drank (from my husband), waiting for him to leave the room so I could sneak another drink without him knowing. Why did I clock watch for 5.30pm to come around so I could pour a drink? And get agitated if I couldn't have one at the regular time. Was I alone in this? In thinking about my friendships, I suspected not but no one ever talks about problems with alcohol. It's a secret shame and one that I have lived with for at least 10 years. I turned 50 in March and organised an 80's themed party for myself - complete with a DJ, drinks wai...