Alcohol Use Disorder, Naltrexone and TSM

I'm still not officially at pharmacological extinction because I'm drinking socially but I'm not experiencing any cravings on a day to day basis.  My past trigger point (late afternoon/early evening starting to prepare dinner) comes and goes without a thought now.  I don't miss it.  I don't want it.  I'm not missing out on anything and am enjoying the clear head and productivity. My graph at 15 weeks shows that I consumed 8 glasses of wine this week.  This was over 2 nights at friends houses. I find that if I am out at a bar or restaurant, I'm less likely to drink that amount and of late it would be 2 drinks maximum.  Also, I've noticed that my friends don't offer water to their guests but keep topping up the wine.  I was guilty of that too before starting TSM.  Now when people come over to our house, I am topping up water glasses for everyone.   Of course, I can get my own water at someone's house and need to remind myself to do tha...

The normalisation of alcohol in Australia has been happening since the First Fleet when rum was the only drink of choice. The Australian Government (who take their cut via bond) normalises it by allowing it to be advertised during sporting events when children are watching. (Of course there is gambling too - another government "sponsored" addiction!) I missed the SBS Insight program called "Wine O'Clock" and will watch it later on iView but I suspect it's going to make me very angry. Angry for all the pain and shame that people are living in when the cure is close at hand. If no one talks, no one knows...about both the problem and the cure. The promo on the SBS website reads, "Recent statistics from the Foundation for Alcohol Research and Education show drinking is on the rise among mid-life women. “This is not a teenage story. These are women who are usually highly functioning, career-and motherhood oriented, who then begin or return to drink...

I wouldn't be physically where I am today if I hadn't found TSM .  Instead of sitting at my computer typing this, I'd most likely still be in bed recovering from a massive hangover and feigning food poisoning or a sinus infection.     Where I am mentally is another part of the story.  TSM is helping me to rediscover myself by allowing my brain to think more clearly than I have in years as the alcohol induced depression and anxiety is lifting.  I'm finding myself smiling, less prone to dark thoughts, more able to enjoy the moment and finding peace where previously I found isolation. My journey has so far been easier than I had anticipated.  Before I took my first dose of Naltrexone, I thought it would be impossible to decrease my drinking level.  I certainly had great hope that it would work but believed it would only come with great sacrifice and pain.  It hasn't at all.  Instead it has brought relief, given me power and restored my ...

My life is improving and it feels good to be out of the pull of alcohol and protected by Naltrexone. One glass of wine last night - cheap Sauvignon Blanc (left over from the afternoon tea party) and it was absolutely AWFUL. (Sincere apologies to any SauvBlanc lovers - I'm a chardonnay girl.) My child is wanting to do more with me of late and asked if he could help with cooking dinner - Beef Stroganoff.  I was very surprised! but he happily stirred while I added ingredients and we chatted.  He also wanted to read to me at bedtime. It melts my heart and I am grateful that the "old drunk short-tempered dragon" has left the house because I want the remains of his childhood to be spent with love, kindness and patience. I never meant to be unkind or impatient or unloveable but 10 plus years of AUD did that to me. I'm finding that I am now able to laugh out loud where previously I was suspicious of a joke. I do hope that Claudia realizes how terribly important her role...